Thursday, April 16, 2015

Lessons from Garth Brooks World Tour

In all of my life I (we) have never spent so much towards one event, EVER:

Tickets $320
Sitter $50
Dinner $36
Max Train $10
Merchandise $80
Drinks $10
Outfit $40
$546

As every item was racking up I found myself asking, “Is this experience worth the cost?” Honestly, the night could finance a whole lotta other things. As I stood in front of (what were prime) seats I looked to my right. Adam stood looking straight ahead mesmerized.

Through the night I was answering questions to a question I had not yet asked:  What did the Garth Brooks World Tour teach me?

I have an emotional attachment to nearly every song in the set.

He started singing “Rodeo” I was back in high school listening to Dad and Binks singing this song together. It was so fast Binks mouth did not move as fast as the words came. The laughter and the entire moments was effortless joy. There has never been a time I do not think of those days when I hear “Rodeo”. It was his second song. I looked at Adam and yelled how I wish Daddy were here to see this. I know he’d of loved it more than I.

“Unanswered Prayers” lyrics can strike a cord with anyone. If I was to have an emotional measure “The Dance” produces the same tie, but at the other end of the scale. The lyrics of both songs tug at reminding us to appreciate Gods plan and keeping gratitude in how we come to receive these gifts. The songs are beautiful. Actually, two of my favorites as both take the audience full circle. I have familiarity in both. I can set apart people of my life to be whom Garth is singing. This is powerful.

He sang and sang. I brought to mind past loves, friendships and experiences. The remembrance ended vastly different than at the time I hoped. The struggles and healing I would repeat. I would not want to miss those chapters. These songs reminded me of my hearts wishes and travels.

Songs linked people to memories that until then had no connection. For instance “The Thunder Rolls” is about a cheating husband and the upset of his wife. As soon as Garth begins:

…Every light is burnin' 
In a house across town 
She's pacin' by the telephone 
In her faded flannel gown…

This song has absolutely zero to do with Grammy Bear. Yet, it strikes a memory of her. Why? I’ve forgotten as I was a child she wore flannel nightgowns. In a millisecond I remembered how it felt. It was comfort and security of being safe in her arms. I long forgot this. The song acted as a boom to a discarded memory.

Trisha came on. She heaved at my memory collection and took me back to the eighth-grade. “She is in love with a Boy” was released and I was young and in love with whom later became my high-school to early adulthood sweetheart. We were madly in love. True blue honest as it gets love. Once it started the fire was undeniable by everyone. Come the 9th grade we thought we had it all figured out. Trisha took me back to those innocent days of desire, wishes and certainty only felt by a teenage girl in love. My heart runs over with gratefulness for our dance.

Billy Joel sang it first. Garth sang it as a cover: “Shameless”. Adam grabbed me. He was enthralled watching Garth give his all vocally to the lyrics. All of the while Adam held me close. Through the concert he would touch me, rub my hand and put his arm over my shoulder. “Shameless” brought feelings to the surface for Adam. As silly as it may seem this it is an amazing thing!



You see in all my life I've never found
What I couldn't resist, what I couldn't turn down
I could walk away from anyone I ever knew
But I can't walk away from you

I have never let anything have this much control over me
I worked too hard to call my life my own
Well I made myself a world and it worked so perfectly
But it's your world now, I can't refuse
I've never had so much to lose

Well I'm shameless

You know it should be easy for a man who's strong
To say he's sorry or admit when he's wrong
I never lost anything I ever missed
But I've never been in love like this
It's out of my hands



I know this man loves me with all of who he is. I am certain he has never loved another as he loves me. I have seen and heard our relationship has transformed him from a reckless boy to a man who try-try as he might gives his all. I can say we are shameless for one another.

Seeing him was healing. Music speaks to hope, happiness and wounds. As I watched and listened to Brooks sing “Standing Outside The Fire” it was almost awkward to hear. I imagined everyone taking a looky-loo into my thoughts. Forty thousand eyeballs entering into my secret. I felt embarrassed and shame as I imagined it shared out to the world. Paranoid, much?  Yes, I have moments of needing to be bigger than big. I have an accurate hunger for dramatics. I want to give back in large ways. I want to feel life and I want life to feel me. These words provide me something I need to take notice of.

There’s this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can’t abide
Standing outside the fire


Music is an art; it is Rembrandt to the ear. The Louvre audience is captivated by Venus de Milo. Sure to some a comparison between Garth and the exquisite Broadway legend Lizza Mineeli is nonexistent. He is this centuries Chopin. Argue my comparisons? Let us scrutinize.

He is the top-selling solo artist in history as well as the only solo artist to surpass three hundred and sixty million (million, people!) albums over six releases. His sold out concerts and TV ratings are high markers too. Garth Brooks ranks among the biggest star of all time. This ranking is kind of a big deal.

Looking at these figures lends a new perspective. He is the best-of-the best in his craft of musical art. He is the Mikhail Baryshnikov of music. Brooks is officially the measure in the world of music. He is a finely tuned Glenn Miller.

We are living in his reign. In time, society will change perception having distance in time. Living in the same point in time with Brooks alters how we view his importance to artists before him. An identifying period of the future will unveil all he has accomplished. It will be then his art will be considered as an immense magnitude in the arts.

I was driving our babysitter home. She asked who we saw. I told her. She asked if it was similar to the Justin Beiber concert she had been. I could not help myself. I laughed allowed. I had to confess I do not know what a teen throb concert entails, but am certain there lays any similarities. She explained her concert. I was right other than a singer the likeness ended.

Again, she asked who “Gerth” is. I looked at her and gave pause. This lovely thirteen-year-old girl has never heard of this icon. ICON! There has been a musical injustice to the youth of our nation. Driving south on the I-205 I felt as though the world engulfed me. I was officially the oldest person alive. I looked at her and all I could say, “I am much too young to feel this darn old.”

I need to recap:
An evening of uninterrupted conversation while eating a complete dinner in an adult restaurant.
Riding on MAX for the first time, alone.
Adam stood looking straight ahead mesmerized.
An energy I thought was ancient history (for us both) was released.
The magic of reconnection was felt.
Memories of forgotten days came alive.
The opportunity to introduce a child to Garth Brooks.
Sharing the same space as an ICON.
Given the ability to open hard truths and own each.
Life goes on while sober living.
An ambiguous time to be home.

I calculate the $540 spent to calculate the return.


Adam’s captivation is worth it all by itself. Everything else is a windfall.