What If

What if I would have chosen to stay in Oregon City after graduating high school?
What if I would have chosen to transfer to an instate university?
What if I would have chosen a different sorority?
What if I would have chose to return home after my first winter break?
What if I would have chosen to work in Moab State Park in Utah vs Camp Wayne for Girls Summer Camp in the Pocono Mountains?
What if I would have chosen to continue to study social work?
What if I would have chosen to ignore wrong doings in my work place?
What if I would have chosen to buy a home in Arizona?
What if I would have chosen to move to Bend?
What if I would have chosen to accept a job transfer to Washington DC?
What if I would have chosen to stay home the eve before Easter?

There are people who believe the ‘grass is always greener’ or who have a case of the ‘shoulda-woulda-coulda’s’. They believe had they chosen that this would have happened. They live in the past.

Yes, hindsight is 20/20.

Perception after the fact is quite simple to figure. The challenge is to have foresight within this same vision. It is to be present and understand it isn’t the choices you didn’t make, but the choices that you do, which hold the most substance.

Honestly, I can write that I don’t live a life where I feel the grass is greener. However, I am guilty of looking back into my past. What if I had opted for the alternative to one- just one- of the above instances?

What if I would have stayed in Oregon City? Moved to Bend? Stayed home that Saturday night?

I would not have met your Dad. Before your Dad I had a list of “What if’s”

What if I never find love?
What if I never get married?
What if I never have children?
What if I never have a home?
What if I am never happy?

I will never know the answers; and I am so pleased.

If I question my choices I question the life I am living. Granted, I didn’t know how the chain of my choices would later affect my future, but I now see its fruit.

There is no question: I am living the life I was purposed.