I can hardly believe it has been a year. It has been a year since we loaded our son into a carseat not properly installed (thank you, again, Providence nurse!). It has been a year since my husband drove down the 205 at 50 mph in the right hand lane white knuckling all the way home to ensure our safe arrival home. It has been a year since our first sleepless night. It has been a year since my heart was no longer my own. It has been a year of baby steps one-by-one.
I find that time is measured on a totally different scale against the growth of a child. The days seem longer, but at the same time each passes by hurriedly. We live in today constantly planning for tomorrow, his next milestone and even college accounts. This past week I have heard many back to school stories and viewed first day photos. It seems we will NEVER get to the first days of school. And at the same time he wears the clothes I bought for him last January. In purchasing these clothes I remember thinking he would never fit into 12 months of anything. The truth is the fall days of school buses and expensive school supply lists will be here sooner than, well, I care for.
I thank my stars for having a husband who has given me the gift to stay home and raise our son. I am blessed to have Groundhog's Day every day (wake, play, feed, bath, play, nap, diaper, feed, play, feed, diaper, nap, feed, play, diaper, greet Dad, play, feed, pjs/diaper, play, bed). Although we have our 'routine' there is never a dull day. We have tantrums and giggles. We share in learning and disobeying. We explore and cuddle. We share our days. He may not remember these tender moments, so I gift him my memory. I will not forget.
There have been many stages and new steps taken through this last year. Today marks the day of new independence on the horizon. He took his first two steps right into Grandpa's arms! Lost in this moment I realized once again what miracle motherhood is. And right now, I am going to take pleasure in being the person who catches him when he falls. Someday, just maybe, he will understand we are both taking our own steps one-by-one through this unknown journey; I too may fall. We will continue to travel by baby steps seeing where this next year and beautiful life takes us.
Happy 1st Birthday, Kaden Adam.
I love you. I like you.
Mom.
I find that time is measured on a totally different scale against the growth of a child. The days seem longer, but at the same time each passes by hurriedly. We live in today constantly planning for tomorrow, his next milestone and even college accounts. This past week I have heard many back to school stories and viewed first day photos. It seems we will NEVER get to the first days of school. And at the same time he wears the clothes I bought for him last January. In purchasing these clothes I remember thinking he would never fit into 12 months of anything. The truth is the fall days of school buses and expensive school supply lists will be here sooner than, well, I care for.
I thank my stars for having a husband who has given me the gift to stay home and raise our son. I am blessed to have Groundhog's Day every day (wake, play, feed, bath, play, nap, diaper, feed, play, feed, diaper, nap, feed, play, diaper, greet Dad, play, feed, pjs/diaper, play, bed). Although we have our 'routine' there is never a dull day. We have tantrums and giggles. We share in learning and disobeying. We explore and cuddle. We share our days. He may not remember these tender moments, so I gift him my memory. I will not forget.
There have been many stages and new steps taken through this last year. Today marks the day of new independence on the horizon. He took his first two steps right into Grandpa's arms! Lost in this moment I realized once again what miracle motherhood is. And right now, I am going to take pleasure in being the person who catches him when he falls. Someday, just maybe, he will understand we are both taking our own steps one-by-one through this unknown journey; I too may fall. We will continue to travel by baby steps seeing where this next year and beautiful life takes us.
Happy 1st Birthday, Kaden Adam.
I love you. I like you.
Mom.
Nicole, my heart, your way of expressing your thoughts and feelings is so eloquent and heartfelt. MY heart dances to see you become this incredible wife and mother, and I am so proud of you, and am so full of joy that I am so lucky to witness this journey you're on.
ReplyDeleteI can't wait to see what comes next!
I love you, Auntie L xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Danette Schlecht Wow it's touching !
ReplyDeleteLynda Blackburn Love it! You have such a way with words, you really should think about writing a book or may a column in the newspaper!!
Jana Blackburn Bosshardt I ditto auntie L.. Nicole you truly have a way unlike no other, You really could make $$ with your words, Its a gift girl.. =))