Friday, January 16, 2015

Fiveteen

You are four going on fiveteen. You have a sense of yourself that not many are fortunate to learn at any age well enough at four years of age. Your cognitive thinking and mechanics continually amaze. You create from nothing. Your curiosity fuels you. It exhausts me. Your mind is busy and bright. Your questions are that of a teenager.

You are four going on fiveteen. You have a sense of entitlement that many teenagers feel. You’re stubbornness and desire can break me down. You manipulate your words and  baby browns to meet the here-and-now need. You control the power of what you claim. You are pint size but come with a studs kick. Similar to many teenage boys you too are a big heart hiding behind a no Nancy attitude.

You are four going on fiveteen. You want cell phones and ipads. You want to talk of your babe and girlfriend Pauline. You use words that should not be spoken. The waters are tested. Comparisons between families began. “He doesn’t have to!” is a quip often heard. I want a new house. I am horrified by wearing this. Actions are fewer as you state your embarrassment. You look through the lens of a teenager.

You are four going on fiveteen. Soon will be your birthday. I can hardly wait. I’d rather have your party any where else besides JJ Jump. That being shared, having your party in a warehouse full of jump houses and bouncing balls keeps perspective. You asking for guinea pigs, TMNT bike helmets, a junior basketball and a CARS ice cream cake gives me breath. This wild combination nourishes my heart. I see my baby boy not as fiveteen, but as five. My Dudes giggling, wrinkled nose look, wrestling on everyone, racing and vrooming as though he is a motorcycle, watching him pulling up his size 3t pants, the best Eskimo kiss giver and annoying piggy back rider all despite the fact that there might be potty in his pants.


You are four going on five.  Fiveteen will just have to wait. 

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Mom


Mom Lyrics


Little baby told God, hey I'm kind of scared.
Don't really know if I want to go down there.
From here it looks like a little blue ball
That's a great big place and I'm so small.


Why can't I just, stay here with you?
Did I make you mad, don't you want me too?
God said oh child, of course I do
But there's somebody special waiting for you


So hush now baby, don't you cry
'Cause there's someone down there waiting whose only goal in life
Is making sure you're always gonna be alright
A loving angel tender, tough and strong
It's almost time to go and meet your mom.


You'll never have a better friend
Or a warmer touch to tuck you in
She'll kiss your bruises, your bumps and scrapes
And anytime you hurt
Her heart's gonna break


So hush now baby, don't you cry
'Cause there's someone down there waiting whose only goal in life
Is making sure you're always gonna be alright
A loving angel tender, tough and strong
It's almost time to go and meet your mom.


And when she's talking to you make sure you listen close
'Cause she's gonna teach you everything you'll ever need to know
Like how to mind your manners, to love and laugh and dream
She'll put you on the path that bring you back to me


So, hush now little baby, don't you cry
'Cause there's someone down there waiting whose only goal in life
Is making sure you're always gonna be alright
A loving angel tender, tough and strong
Come on child it's time, to meet your mom


--Garth Brooks 2013

The Graduate

This photo may not be around when you are older. Here I am receiving my BALS Degree at NAU. The year was 2004. I look like such a baby as I am sure you boys will when you receive your degrees (**hint**)


Legoland

'Goodest greatest morning Ash!' He gets up walks over, grabs me by my cheeks and says, 'I am glad I chose you to be Mommy. There are aaaaa LOTS of tummies out there, ya know.' He smiles at me, walks back and plays.
Baby boy, thank you for starting the day with the meaning of gratitude and love. My heart is overfilling in both as I watch you now lost in Legos.

Jackie Boy

Jack scared the bejeezies out of me. There is small wall space between their bedroom and their bathroom. Jack standing guard in that spot. I turned down the hall and startled. He was not there 5 mins ago...


Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Meet Jack



Santa brought Ashton this Nutcracker. It is ceramic and as tall as he is. Ashton has taken to dragging Jack all through the house. Since they are both the same height transport is hilarious This morning I come around to nag him to brush his teeth for the umpteenth time. I turn into the bathroom to witness the above. He is brushing Jacks teeth and wiping away the drool. What are friends for? 

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Trouble



Kade: Mommy did you play Trouble when you were little? 
Me: Yes I did. I loved games and still do.
Kade: This is a pretty old game then!